cafe rio

the other day i was looking for some cafe rio recipes an old roommate sent me once. so i did a search for "cafe rio" in my gmail. of the 11 emails that showed up, 7 of them were from/to ChurchGirl. i'm pretty sure the foundation of our friendship is a mutal love for food.

the thing's i'll do for a paycheck

today at work i had to look up some websites that my office might use to advertise our HIV vaccine trials. we try to focus on specific groups that are at high risk for HIV, such as gay men. here's a list of some of the website's i looked at:

adam4adam
bigmuscles
manhunt
BGCLive

while some are more graphic then others, i highly recommend never looking at any of these sites. the mental scars will probably never leave me.

right? right? crap

i've been second-guessing myself a lot lately. i've done or said things and quickly started thinking, "that may have been a very bad idea. things could go horribly wrong as a result"

most of time this happens after i've had an emotionally-charged conversation of some type: politics, relationships, politics' effects on relationships, and seemly casual conversations that have a totally different sub-text.

it has been a little annoying. i'm not a fan of self doubt and am sure it will pass. in the meantime, if i call you and ask you stupid questions, you're response should probably be "what? no, that was totally the right thing to do." or "absolutely, that person still likes you even if you said that stupid/insensitive thing."

she's almost a real person

last weekend i went home. when my little brother was still in TN, i mostly chilled with him when i went home. now that he is gone i am forced to talk to the rest of the family. since my parents neglected me all weekend, i was left with only Babes to entertain me. she was surprisingly cool. i even got her to wash my car. it is so weird to watch my little sister grown-up. i'm used to her being a silly little girl that loves glitter, not someone that is legally allowed to drive us to church. someday i might even see her as an equal. scary.