you tell me that you need me, then you go & cut me down...

luckily, as soon as i started talking to the aforementioned ex-boyfriend, i remembered how manipulative and insecure he could be. when he suggested that we meet in NYC over the break (where we both happened to be going), i was slightly tempted. but, in the end reason won out & i will be hitting up NYC with Boy & no one else. overall, i'm glad i talked to him, but i doubt it will become a habit. i'd rather think about that hot angst-ridden guy i didn't talk to. i sure he doesn't have any emotional issues....

you can't stay here with every single hope you have shattered

after my political posts of late, i decided to get back to my favorite topic: my love life, or lack thereof. right after i got back from my mission i met a really hot guy & starting dating him. after a few months i realized i liked him for more than his desire to buy me food & things got pretty serious. about a year ago we started to have problems, all centered around some of his personal issues. eventually our relationship crashed & burned, leaving me utterly devastated. i dealt with my sorrow by pretending like he no longer existed & moving across the country. he would try to contact me about once a month & i never responded. eventually he gave up & i got over him. last time i heard from him it was my birthday & i did email him back then to say i forgave him & have a nice life. i assumed that he was looking for that closure b/c i hadn't heard from him since.

until yesterday when i got a long email going into more detail about why he broke up with me & how much he regretted, as it was perhaps the biggest mistake of his life. he told me all about how he'd been heartbroken for months, how he wished i was still there, and how much he missed me. i really don't know how to deal with this development. is he really having this much trouble moving on or is he trying to manipulate me again? is he saying he wants to get back together or was this email just to give him closure? does he realize it has been almost a year since we've spoken to each other and all his apologies are a bit late in coming?

the one thing that i am happy about is that this is the first time since we broke up that hearing from him hasn't caused me undue anxiety/depression/panic. whatever happens, at least he's lost the bizarre emotional control he had over me for so long. and it only took a year!

you talk talk talk about it

i usually take public transport to school but i didn't want to buy the pass for december so i've been driving to school lately. i get bored sitting in atlanta traffic so i've started listening to the news shows on the radio. for some reason i can only find ones with extremely conservative commentators (not for lack of trying to find liberals). at first i was annoyed, but then i decided to see what crazy things they said for amusement. i expected the normal "hillary clinton is satan reincarnate", "global warming is a myth", & "the war is going well". as amusing as i find those views, here are a few i wasn't expecting as part of the republican platform:

1. organic food is bad (sorry, Churchgirl, if you like organic food you must be liberal!)
2. PhD's are bad
3. germany (modern, not nazi) is bad
4. designing cities to encourage walking to fight obesity is bad

how do any of these things relate to being liberal? i am amazed at the ability for everything in world to fit into the bi-chromatic rainbow we have for a political system. you prefer small government? congrats, you also love guns & hate higher education!

an inconvenient truth

Why is global warming such a political issue? I have been pondering this lately. What about the very idea of humans being responsible in any way for climate change upsets people like ann coulter so much? it has nothing to do with the war, abortion, or jesus.
i have decided that is has absolutely nothing to do with the issue itself - it is only because Al Gore made a movie about it that liberals support it & conservatives deny it. i think that if Bush or Cheney had been the politicians to say global warming was a problem conservatives would be slapping green ribbons on their cars right next to their American flags and christian fish. and liberals would be ranting about how bush is spending all the national budget on yet another pipe dream.

As happy as i am that people are starting to pay more attention to caring for the environment, the whole eco fad is kinda annoying me. all the "green" t-shirts, cars, makeup, etc. aren't really a substitute for recycling, planting trees, and not wasting what we have. the eco-craze is just another thing we've found to make us all feel good about ourselves without actually having to change our lifestyles. the "green" oscars? seriously? how are all those diamonds eco-friendly? instead of wasting millions of dollars on publicity stunts why didn't they use all that money to buy up some rainforest in brazil - or better yet, encourage economic development so people wouldn't have to keep chopping it down. hypocrites.

we are the champions

Atlanta has officially beat both LA & Philly for the much coveted title "Bank Robbery Capital of the US". We went from 249 bank robberies in 2006 to 350 in 2007 to date. That is a 40.6% increase in just one year. Way to go Atlanta!

HOTlanta

Today it was 75 degrees and sunny. It is supposed to be 80 on Tuesday. Is the drought making atlanta into southern california? if only

i feel like laura linney in "love actually"...

I could write this book

when i get bored in church i amuse myself by analyzing the congregation. in high school i would count the number of mullets (average = 3 per sunday). here in atlanta i count the number of people i actually know (average = 3 per 10 people). in my musing i can't help but notice that some of the young men in the congregation are highly attractive (average = 2 per 50). one such young man is my roommate's fiance's roommate, named BJ. he has the tortured artist look going on (even though he is in law school) & is hilarious. today he came & sat next to me in church. inside, i was thinking "sweet, this guy is freakin hot". outside, i totally ignored him. even though i think he's the hottest guy in the ward, when he actually sits next to me....i don't even talk to him. yes, i am an idiot.

Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever

The Manorexic showed me a list of the funniest similes collected from true high school English papers. The kids that wrote these are unbelievable - like something that is hard to fathom. Here are a few favorites:

1. Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had its two sides gently compressed by a ThighMaster.
2. He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant, and she was the East River.
3. She grew on him like she was a colony of E. Coli, and he was room-temperature Canadian beef.
4. She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.
5. McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.
6. From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you’re on vacation in another city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p.m. instead of 7:30.
7. Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph
8. . He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up
9. The ballerina rose gracefully en Pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.

and my all time favorite:

10. The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work.